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Friday, October 29, 2010

disappointed

my heart was pain when i know everything..
what's the meaning of BEST FRIEND actually? i really don't know
yea, for sure i know everyone dislike me..but what can i do?
i beg them, but in the end still hate me.. haiz~

my heart really pain, yea just boycott me then
it's okay that i stay alone everytime..
when i saw all of my friends together two by two, i realized that i have no any true friend
what i did actually? i really don't know..
seems what i do also wrong, seems everyone of my school friends also hate me

in my mind, friends are meaningless for me 
not important to me anymore
yes, i am hurt.

if you don't like me, you may stay far away from me
it's okay to boycott me cause i already used to it
no need to be friend with imitation okay
really don't need !

everyone just know to come tell me that what i did wrong, hate me, dislike me, and bla bla bla
it's enough
yea, i know what i do also wrong in your heart.
just hate me then
don't need come and say / do something to hurt me
my heart is red but not plastic okay?
what's kind of BEST FRIEND is this?


everyone just know to think about their feeling
just know how hurt are they
just know how unhappy are they
but me?
no one care me, no one will understand my feeling
HAHA


i damn like this post which i copied from fb :
1、不要总想着人家,在人家心里你真的不配
2、不要总看人家的动态,就算你在累,人家也不理会
3、不要总想人家,就算你付出在多,人家也不会落泪
4、不要一直关注人家,人家不知道已经把你当成什么另类
5、不要缠着人家,人家会说:你不累,我还累
6、不要怨恨人家,你没什么让人家回味,就算你支离破碎
7、不要不如意就破害己,来惩罚人家的不对
8、不要总不自量力的估计自己在人家心里的地位,知到真相后看你怎样无奈
9、不要盲目跟随人家的思维,人家会说你就会跟别人学
10、不要老瞅人家有什么不对头,就上前问人家为什么变化,人家会想你不配,老追问啥呀,你当你是谁
11、不要迷恋人家到你身心疲惫,等你到后悔,不知道你曾流过多少泪
12、不要老担心人家,人家不会为你欣慰
13、不要整天幻想人家,人家要是知道肯定会反胃
14、不要老光顾人家空间,不知道人家的哪句状态让你生死难寐
15、不要老想和人家说话,人家一句话总让你回味,而人家就当耳边风,不会理会,在人家眼里咱就是个玩耦而以,高兴了拿出来耍耍,,心情不好了就把咱们踢一边去,气就要向咱们发!!
16、不要老低估自己,人家多“高贵”,咱们多“卑微”,到最后还不知道到底是谁不配!
 

Thursday, October 28, 2010

hold my hand tightly, till the end of our life, can you?

Don't cry because it's over.
Smile because it happened.
                                      ----- by Theodor Seuss Geisel
i damn like this note
i read it from a magazine when i'm waiting mummy while she's having MRI at hospital
the note was meaningfull and i almost cry out when i read this ♥ 




next, i want be SLIM ! > <
i know it's hard for me.. but i really envy those girls which has their slim body and pretty face (^^)
i like those dresses, handbags, shoes, and many else.. but i'm fat and short ! OMG


i texted him today

he was sick and weak.. hmm, i damn worry him now.
i'm glad because his friend, jason tan promised me to take care him~
yea, all his friends treat me very very good.. i also don't know why = = haha !
finally, we're together back..♥
i really wish that we can together till the end of our life..
thanks to jason yap, smeli chong, jason tan. nick, and all..
thank you so much..

lai mun chun, look at here  
i hope you can do what you promised me today
i hope you can hold my hand tightly till the end of our life and don't push me away anymore
please..
our love is not superficial, so appreciate it okay?
i wont regret, since the first day i wanna together with you..




my boubuii muii, hazel was sad today
but i don't wish to say out what had happened to him
but muii, be strong.. just be yourself okay? i will always be with you~
love you muii, makss ♥




lai mun chun, i love you more than words can say
don't leave me anymore please, i hope you will love me well..♥  









Wednesday, October 27, 2010

i miss him

i miss him, damn miss :(
i really can't let him go
he's in my heart deeply..
i tried to text him today, and i cried..
he told me, he miss me too..!
i was happy, but too bad he's not my hubby anymore


i was exhausting, i really need him
i wont forget our memories, although we just together not really long
but those are sweet and happy memories  
he brings me happiness, made me jealous, made me cry and angry..
sweet sour bitter, damn hard to forget him


lai mun chun, can you don't push me away?
do you know how much i need you?
my heart really pain, when i knew you removed our photos
when i heart ache, i really don't know can find who except you
besides crying, i really don't know what can i do..


my world from pink turn to black, oh yeah i'm dying..
when i not happy, i don't know can find who..
i'm glad that i got my muii, hazel
i know she was sad also, just like me..
i ask her to be strong, but i can't do it also..


our own love, but we can't decided or choose by ourselves..
have no choice, cause this is our fate
unfair? so what? i really don't know what to do since my life without him..
maybe everyone will think that i'm stupid or what..
i don't care, because i love him
no one can understand my feeling well..


yea, maybe in other's eyes, he is bad
but in my eyes, he is the best, cause he is the one i loved
he ask me give him some times, one week only can reconnect him
but i really can't do it, even one day also seems like one year..
i pray to the god, i hope it can hear what i wish, hope it can know how much i love him
i looked at grandma's photo, i asked her don't bring him go..
grandma, please..don't bring him go, i need him, i love him entirely.. please..

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

a post for my beloved

today was my saddest day in my life
my dearest husband gonna leave me soon
cause of his family, he planned to leave me
sorry that i cant say out what's the problem


i was sad, cause he took our love as so superficial
lai mun chun, can you understand?
since i promise you that i wold like to help you, for sure i can know how hard of our future
i was brave to face this problem together with you, why don't you?
you think you set me free and let me go, then you can reduce your stress?
NO, you can't


i took business and account subject, isn't i can't help you at all? hmm?
you said wanna let me go. if i really gone, you really can reassurance me?
because of love, i would like to face those stuff with you, why don't you understand?

i can guaranty, i'm the person most loves you
do you remember how we planned our future? remember what we promised to each other?
dear, don't leave me please.. you know how much i love you..
you know that, you know i need you
dear, do you know my heart was very pain? not just is yours
i've already took you as my husband, not just boyfriend..
don't push me away, please..

lai mun chun, i love you, more then i can say..
 
 

Monday, October 25, 2010

a post for my dearest muii - hazel ♥

start from today, i will change my blog to english..
cause of my dearest kai muii, HAZEL LAU YEE PENG
besides that, i also wish to improve my english , whee~~ 







just a short post, to be continue soon (^^) 

Sunday, October 24, 2010

可笑

终于学会看清这个世界
是多麽恐怖的一个世界 赫赫
所谓的友情 所谓的人与人之间
统统都让我觉得好可笑


你们可以尽情地侮辱我
可以尽情地去丑化我
对于这一切一切,我已经习惯了

我的确是让人非常讨厌 的确如你们所想的那样
我是肥 肥得非常没有身材的那个肥
我是贱 贱得被人踩得一文不值那个
我是假 假得让人非常讨厌的那一个

对于一切的讨厌和辱骂 我一笑而过
我以为自己可以不在乎 但其实心里好痛
我不需要你们的可怜 我一个人也可以过得很好
我是故意不去学校
对于所有的是是非非 我根本不想听
对我来说 现在的我 仿佛是世界末日

我恨 我怨
自己那麽没用 明知道自己被讨厌了还要那麽在乎
在乎什麽?只会让人更讨厌
心痛什麽?只会让人更不爽

好像 我做什麽都是错 而大家做的都对
好像 我的心是用铁做的 任人随意践踏

赫赫 不爽我的人 看到我这个post一定更不爽吧
我纯粹发泄 说出我的想法
随便 要怎麽误会 我都不会再解释了
反正 你们都认定我是怎样的人了

对 我很可怜 实在是愚蠢
以前的大小姐生活 现在沦落到要收集汽水罐和纸皮去卖
下个月的晚上还要做工赚钱
我可怜我自己 但不需要任何人的可怜!

你们要幸灾乐祸或是怎样 随便你们
但 我真的很讨厌那些搬弄是非的人!
我终于明白 人的可怕 哈哈!

Saturday, October 9, 2010

我为老婆yoki做的生日惊喜 ♥




朋友 姐妹 都已不够来形容     我们的默契骄傲 扶持与包容
老婆 老婆 我们一起打勾勾     请记得约定的旅程到永久

我爱我老婆、爱我姐妹  当然也爱我老公啦 ♥
老公因为我弄这个video给老婆而吃醋了
嘻嘻嘻~  老公不要吃醋,我疼你! x)) 

最近嗄 都跟老公好好噢 虽然昨天又吵架了一下下
但是他疼我!呵呵  幸福幸福 

短短的一个post
因为懒惰update  不知道该写什么好 

Sunday, October 3, 2010

不舍

星期五是最后一天补习了 全部都带着依依不舍的心情离开
虽然在那里不是很多年 但我们有着深厚的感情
镁心跟我们说的时候,我和玲都忍不住哭了

不知道以后有没有机会再见面 不知道以后的我们变到怎样
但我依然记得 我在那里的每时每刻
我们在那里开零食大会…在那里玩角色扮演…
在那里气老师…在那里庆祝生日…
在那里跟大家分享自己的心情…在那里一起学习…
哭哭笑笑的一点一滴 让我永远都无法忘记

奶妈winnie 老师镁心老师紫梅老师莹瑜老师诗云老师seng yau ……等等
我会想念你们的! T^T
好了啦 我又想哭了~

最近妈咪又进医院了 至于为什么,我真的不想说
知道这件事的朋友,谢谢你们的关心 ~
不知道的朋友,对不起噢~我没有那个心情去说

预考一个星期了 我知道我的成绩一定会不理想
睡眠不足加上没温习 一定很差

老公说,我是他爱的 baby
气死我了啦 = =
没办法蛤 谁叫我整天在他的面前做糗事 >.<


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